Thursday, March 12, 2009

My window sill

the amarylis that graces my window sill has finally begun to bloom again. It's brilliance impresses and awes me at every glance. I find myself overtaken with memories of the last time it bloomed... the week our little Autumn Marie came into this world. It seems as though that were a lifetime ago. The only constant thing in our world has been change and I am reminded of this every time these two little faces look up at me.
It always amazes me how far they have come in only a year... how differently they move and express themselves. I can't believe Autumn is walking and can ask for specific things. She has begun to leave behind so many baby signs for sounds trying ever so hard to make those words. When I hear her say "BOB peeezzzs!!" I know she wants me to play Boberanne by the Beach boys (her fav new song). I don't know why it is so sweet, but it just is.... it warms my heart and makes me smile and I feel dorky because I want to cry sometimes.  It seems that no matter how much time I spend being with her it is never enough... not for me. I love watching her hobble over with a giant book and plop down in my lap and say PPEEZ.  Perhaps being a mom is mostly about being smitten.

3 comments:

anna j said...

Jen--what a simply stunning last line . . . the truth of it, so far as I can tell thus far in my child-care-obsessed life, makes me a bit lonesome for me own motherhood experience :-)
It is good to hear your blogging words, and I do hope to see you again soon!

Susan said...

Sweet Jen,
I love your mother-heart, and all those feelings you have as a mother are amplified as a grandmother. These are wonderful pictures and made me want to cry and shout at the same time - what joy being a mother is! Love, Mom

linda said...

I love this Jen. I was just talking about how exciting each new age is but how I miss my two year old Juden and my one year old Ella and how quickly those moments slip by. I love the last line too!